Now we are not big drinkers, hubby and I. I don't like beer, and he pretty much won't drink anything, just doesn't like the taste of alcohol. So last night when I broke out the margarita mix I'd hope he knew what was on my mind.

Well if you read last night's post you know how that ended up.

Unfortionately the stuff I got just wasn't too his taste, so I ended up drinking his too (I'm not one to waste something good). So this AM I complain that waking up was a little harder than I liked and he tells me that's my own fault. I told him I wouldn't have drank at all if I didn't want to have some fun.

Tonight for some reason, he got out the very last of the margarita stuff and we each had one with dinner. I thought that was a sign from him, but now I'm not so sure. He went to bed early without me.

He has a habit of sneaking away from me... I hate it. We'll be together, watching TV or whatever and then he'll go upstairs to "use the bathroom" or to "check an auction on Ebay". The problem is he doesn't come back when he's done. He reads a magazine, or goes to bed.

Am I really so bad that he has to run away from me. Maybe I really am just a horrible nag. (Of course you all will think I am, since this is where I decided I can vent all this stuff out, but go with me here... I don't actually think I am)

I go to a forum sometimes, and post there... but this way just seems a little bit more private with my thoughts. There I feel like people know me too well, that they will judge me. Here if you judge me, I don't have to care.

So I think I'm going to go to bed now, and see if he will reach for me first. If he doesn't I don't know if I'll try or not.

Sometimes hearing him say no is worse than him not asking.

Thanks all
Cat

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Hey all,
Welcome to my blog.

My husband's asleep in the bedroom next door. He's been working so much that he's so tired he can't stay up with me. Again. I had hoped to keep him up for some "together time" but no such luck tonight.

Is it normal to have to pursue a man in order to get him to sleep with you? I'd like if he would just take the initiative with me sometimes. It's not that I'm not his thing anymore... he enjoys himself plenty when I get him started. And I don't think wanting it once or twice a week is too extreme is it?

I've thought sometimes about seeking satisfaction elsewhere. And actually I know he wouldn't even mind. He's encouraged me to find someone to satisfy my sexual desires with, and that as long as I kept it open with him he wouldn't care. As long as it wasn't an emotional relationship, just sex. Is that completely weird?

The thing is I don't think I could have sex with someone and that it could be just sex. I'd have to get to know them, feel cared about.

He's a wonderful husband really. He takes good care of me and our daughter. I do know he's entirely devoted to us... and I wouldn't want to mess up what we have. He's honestly my best friend, but I just don't know if we are connecting the way we used to.

Well that's where I'm coming from, what I'm thinking about tonight.
Thanks All,
Cat